There are times in life, many times for some of us, that our hearts are filled with worry. I am facing a time like that right now. My heart is burdened with the wonders of what is going on with me physically. I am having some health issues that when they strike, can cause great fear and panic. Being a young mother (29)of two young boys and a wife, I dread when these things come up. Like many of you I am sure, I have been through the ringer with medical stuff. Major surgeries and unsolved medical mysteries. I would be lying to say I am not absolutely weary and just totally exhausted from dealing with medical drama. My family and I long for a period of peace. I suppose we did have about a year where no major medical issues came up. So really, I should be thankful , and I am. But, the truth is that my heart is not only a little worried, but fed up with the ups and downs of constant medical issues. I will spare you the boring details of what is going on with me and just ask those of you that are prayer warriors to please say a little prayer for me. Not really for healing this time. I certainly do believe in healing and God's power to do just that, but , through spending some time with God recently and probably through the prayers of other's -I have a sense that healing isn't what my focus should be this time around. Rather, I really just want answers. I want to know what is going on with me so that, well so that I know. And so that my heart will stop being so heavy with wonder and worry. We not only long for answers, but I really just need God's strength and energy. There are days when I feel terrible. And that is when the enemy can get to me with his lies and tricks. He can try and drag me down through how I "feel" . So I need God's strength and I need his joy in these trials. I also pray for Him to bless me with increasing faith and hope and trust. To remember that HE is in control of my life. He really is. He know's what is going on with me. And He know's my future. Of course, giving Him my worries is part of that. For Christ tells us not to worry, to give Him our worries and just to focus on today and not about tomorrow. Today has enough trouble as does tomorrow. By why worry he says? Does it do us any good? Nope. Not one bit. Does it add a day to my life to worry about this? Does it do any good to me to wonder and worry? No, it makes me sick and tired. So, I am doing my utmost best to give God my worries. It's not easy that's for sure. What I find is helping me is to focus on this one thing alone and it is what I have begun to pray , "God, may Your Will be done in my life". Honestly, that's all we can do. Is to ask God that His will for our life be done. I mean, worrying won't help. And I don't know anything yet so...all's I can do is remember his love, his promises and trust Him. Focusing on His will being done in my life, focusing on Him and honoring and glorifying Him with my life (no matter HOW BAD I feel) is what helps so much. The truth is, even if I was told after my brain scan this week that I have some kind of tumor or even cancer (I sure hope not!) , then I will still pray for God's will to be done in my life. I will STILL honor and glorify Him with everything I have in me. Most days, I feel awful and have no energy or drive in me. I do need God's help. But , I refuse to let worry and uncertainty (and the enemy) win. He will not steal my joy.
I want to encourage those of you going through tough times right now , whatever it may be , to try and focus your worries on God. To give them to Jesus. And to ask God for His mighty will to be done in your life. For Him to complete the great work He started in you, no matter what you are going through. The fact is, God can still use you no matter where you are at or what you are going through right now.. Just like He can and will use me. Do you feel like me most days? Then know you are not alone and the answer is asking God to get you through that day and to help you with His strength and joy. He does not promise this life will be easy and comfortable, but He does promise that He will be with us and will help us if we trust in and follow Him.
Hopefully soon, my hearts burdens will lift and I will know what is going on with me, good or bad. I pray for each of you as well. No matter what you are facing, that God will bless you with a joyful heart, His strength and hope. Trust in Him and give all your worries to Him that He may bless your heart.
Love you all!
In Christ's Love,
~M~
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